random wally post.

okay, i have issues with my cat wally.

right now, he's sitting on the bed with me, actually leaning, (leaning!) on my pillow and acting like this bed is his. dammit wally i just changed the sheets, you fiend.

okay he just totally just closed his eyes and fell asleep leaning on my pillow.

grr. this means a pillow war, crazyface. (this is what i call him when he's being crazy and jumping all over the place. and i swear he annoys me on purpose)

is it weird that i talk to my cat all the freakin' time? and it's not really one of those "who a cute putty tat? who is it?" or any of those coo-ing things petowners say to their pets all the time, because i frankly think that wally would slap me if he could if i were ever to say stuff like that to him.

(i do a bit of coo-ing sometimes too though, but i call him macho and good-looking. seriously. he doesn't deserve to be ridiculed, even if he doesn't understand it)

this how i usually talk to him when i get back from work:

*opens the door and looks for him. he's usually in front of the door anyways*
   me:   wallster! i'm home!
wally:   meowwww..(he's got this weird vibrating voice. it's hilarious)
   me:   hey man, how's it going? i missed you. (gooey voice unavoidable)
wally:   meeooow... (not very original huh)
   me:   what'd you do today man? sleep all day?
wally:   *rolls on the floor in front of me as i pet and scratch him*
   me:   you slept on my bed didn't you crazyface?
wally:   *glares and bites my hand*

yep. i bully him all the time haha. and he does give a really good glare, you should see it sometime. i think he's been secretly watching my harry potter movies and trying to channel severus snape.

but yeah it isn't that weird right? i talk to him like i'd talk to a human being. maybe i need more friends and maybe i'm nuts but meh, who cares? wally's awesome and i like talking to random inanimate objects anyways. i talk to my stuffed toy, remember?

sigh. one thing i hate about holidays is the fact that it always feels like a weekend, but then tomorrow you have to work. yech.

life's too short to be serious.

"funny, when you're dead how people start listening"

good news folks. i finally got my salary for january yesterday!

well, actually, don't know if the boss was trying to appease our souls or if he was scared that he'd spend the money again, but he gave the whole office our salary for january, february, as well as our claim! ha, good thinking lad. i'd have killed you otherwise.

upon receiving my riches, i've decided to go shopping. yep, i ain't holding back. (well actually i held back quite a bit cause i made a few lists outlining my expenditures for this month and the next so i'd not spend too much.) and i have gone all out this time hahaha. (muke puas ati)

but thing is, i only buy like, skincare and makeup. it's my current phase, so i'm riding it out as best as i can. last year's most memorable phases were accessories (mainly rings and necklaces) and jeans. well, grey jeans to be exact. i was so fixated on finding good quality, awesome looking grey jeans for cheap (haha), and now i have like 4 pairs kot? errr, haha.

i found this really interesting site which i am in love with, due to all the ridiculously cool random facts and infos that they have in there. srsly, i love myself some random infos. this one list i just read is just fantastic, and a bit creepy too: Top 15 Bizarre True Stories. (i like 2, 4 and 9)

ah, i love the weekends. so lazy. :P

ta!

angry, very angry rant.

i don't have the energy.

it's february now, and I still haven't received my salary for january. i'm way broke, i'm de-motivated, i'm resentful towards the boss and all his insanity. i've never heard of a company that doesn't plan well enough into the future to actually save some money for a rainy day.

and boss, it's a frickin' hailstorm right now.

my parents keep telling me to find another job. i want to, but i'm too tired, too...befuddled to think right now. i don't have enough strength to wake up in the mornings already, let alone search for job vacancies and apply and go through mindless interviews and filling out forms for something i'm not sure i'll get yet.

as you can tell, i'm feeling a bit negative and hateful right now.

i have this painful ache in my mouth where the fillings for one of my tooth came out and left a gaping hole. it hurts when i eat. my gums bleed when i eat something that's too hard and chewy. it's fucking distracting. but i can't go to the dentist because i have no money to eat let alone spend it on a tooth.

my car's alignment is nuts again, because the roads in damansara are not well-maintained. there are frickin' holes everywhere and my reflexes aren't that fast to avoid them. my steering wheel's vibrating like mad. but i can't repair it because i'm afraid i'll run out of money to eat and more importantly, i might run out of cash for petrol.

i can't pay the bills. i can't pay my parking space. i can't buy groceries.

i've worked really hard for that money. that's the most maddening part. i do my job and i do come early now and leave late so that i can get paid. i'm not a volunteer. i work so i can avoid this situation.

heck, if i wanted to not be paid i would've stayed at home, would i?

but no. the top management can't pay us because the boss doesn't have money. not a single cent. nak bayar gaji to the 2 chinese girls in my office so that they can celebrate chinese new year in peace pun cannot. last-last kena pinjam dari contractor. how embarrassing and humiliating is that?

one of my officemates is pregnant and is due within this month. how's she gonna pay for all the visits to the doctor? and what happens when she actually does give birth? bukan mampu nak bayar kalau harapkan laki sorang je. and yet the boss comes to the office late, doesn't even make the effort to get the payment from the client and issues cheques that bounce. last-last bank account baru bukak dah kena suspend. tak larat nak cakap, boss gi la follow up dengan kpm tu, degil, nak suruh secretary dia jugak wat keje dia. pastu ko wat ape?

srsly, how can you not be angry and pissed off if you were in my (or my officemates') situation? bengang kan? aku tak nak la cari gaduh, buat bising pasal benda ni, tapi penat kot. penat pikir mane nak cari duit untuk makan. brape banyak dosa dah aku dapat sebab kutuk care ko handle situation ni.

argh i am so pissed off. sabar sabar, nasib baik la Allah ajar suruh sabar. fuhhhhh.

memang sah la kena carik keje lain ni. arrrgh malasnye. but better than waiting like an ass kan? it's bound to happen again.