let's do a random tag cos i'm bored heck yeah.

i'm bored. let's just throw that out there. i'm bored and i spent the majority of today in my baju kelawar, doing random things on the internet and managing to annoy the feck out of my cat by just existing. good times.

and by doing random things on the internet, i do mean online shopping. OF COURSE. everyone knows that. heh. i got a msg from luxola.com today cos they had a flash sale for halloween (30% off yo!) and even though i had just bought stuff from them like, literally a few days earlier i felt that i wanted, nay, i NEEDED to get some more stuff. suddenly my lips were super chapped and dry and i needed a new lip balm (well to be fair my ole trusty shea butter lip balm dah nak habis) and i needed new makeup brushes and god, so many other stuff. 

i admit. i have a shopping problem. and a makeup problem. and a tendency to be poor problem.

aaaanyways, since i've been so immersed in makeup-dom today, i felt like i wanted to do a random beauty tag. i've watched a few of these on youtube and they seemed like fun, and made me wonder about what my answers would be. i mean, since my makeup collection has gone from nothing to a whole drawer unit in just a few years i think it's safe to say that i have a lot of makeup like to waste money have no life my answers would be quite interesting?

so...yeah, this is called the beauty junkie tag? people do this on youtube i think, not really in blogs, but who the hell cares? it's my blog it's not like people read this anyways lolz.

BEGIN!

1. Favourite makeup items.

i've got a few, honestly. my 3 loves are probably eyeliner, cream eyeshadows and blushes. 

but i do amass a high number of other makeup items too so...yeah, everything i guess?

2. Favourite high-end and drugstore brands.

high-end: i have quite some products from thebalm (they're considered high-end right?), benefit and mac. 

drugstore: sleek makeup and nyx.

3. What products would you buy even if they were expensive?

cheek products! cos the good quality ones last longer and apply better really. and eyeliners cos 

that shit is the bee's knees. and foundation, cos it makes your face look like it's in one colour lol.

What products would you not buy even if they were cheap?

lipgloss. cos to me they be sticky and gloopy and i'm not a fan of shiny shiny lips really. but other people pull it off really well. and eyebrow stuff. cos i got me some thick eyebrows already.

How many makeup products do you have?

a lot. an ikea helmer a lot. like, 'i-am-obsessed-but-i-cannot-stop-help-me-please' kind of a lot. well, not really but i've got way more than what i need surely.

Did you purchase all of your makeup?

90% of them, yes. the other 10% are gifts from family members.

What's your favourite makeup season?

hot and humid season? lol well if malaysia had four seasons it'd probably be summer (cos of the hot bronze goddess looks) and autumn (cos of the smokey eyes and the orangey-red colours). 

Any makeup tips?

er...when applying mascara, wipe off the excess on the wand first before applying cos it'll prevent clumping? oh! and i personally believe in pairing my contour with a natural looking blush so i look extra chiselled and thinner hah.

Do you love wearing lipgloss?

noooooooope.

Why not?

like i said, it's shiny. and doesn't really look natural. and has a tendency to goop around the mouth if you're not careful, making you look like you just drooled all over your face. in public.

What is the makeup step that you neglect the most?

brows? i don't do it at all really.

When did you first start wearing makeup?

when i was...maybe in my 20's? i was in uni already at any rate. i used to wear black eyeliner just on the bottom lashes. tried the look out the other day, really weird and unattractive haha.

Do you wear makeup to school?

nope. i was too busy being a kid and watching cartoons and not caring about how i looked. 

oh how i've missed those days. 

How often do you clean your makeup brushes?

deep cleansing maybe once a month? spot cleaning once a week i guess.

ain't nobody got time for that!

How do you clean your makeup brushes?

i use a makeup brush cleaner for spot cleaning, spray that stuff onto the brush and swipe away!

for deep cleaning i use baby shampoo/dove beauty bar soap/beauty blender cleanser.

Do you wear makeup every single day?

i spend like 60% of my time at home, so...no. but when i go out i usually will wear makeup, cos my skin's not at it's best at the moment will all the splotchy redness and the weird acne and patchy flaky skin. sigh. 

If you could create one makeup item, what would it be and why? 

a natural, russet slash terracotta coloured blush with pink undertones. because even if it sounds like a boring and common colour, in reality it's so hard to find cheaper brands that make colours like that! i want something that looks like burberry's russet.

What is the most makeup items you own?

i got blushes in all colours and finishes and i love every single one of them! *blush fiend*

What is the least makeup items you own?

i surprisingly do own a lot of lipglosses even though i don't really like them. weird. but...i have no eyebrow products at all.

Describe your makeup routine in 3 words.

time-consuming. fun. natural-ish. hahahaha.

and that's it! woot! :D i love makeup, i really do. for all my t-shirt wearing and military boots rocking, i really enjoy the process of applying my warpaint and like, enhancing what i already have. it's fun, like an art experiment. you get the same canvas but different colours and mediums, and you get to create different artworks. it makes me feel like i put an active effort into making myself look presentable to the world.

i'm not a bit past my whole evil eyes look that i've been loving so much the past few months. i'm currently interested in the whole natural or 'no makeup' look. why? well, it's easy to apply makeup and make it visible to the whole world, but to apply makeup and not make it visible? that's hard yo. it's like optical illusions and shit haha.

probably took like 10 products to achieve this look.

i like the whole look of a tanned face with full natural looking lashes. this is the kind of look where some people think you're naturally better looking than you really are. i like!

ooh pretty makeup.

ooh exotic looking. 

emma watson always wears natural makeup. and she's the brightest witch of her age, so she knows what she's doing y'all.

i have a girl crush on her. even rocks have girl crushes on her.

aaaand that's it!

i survived today solely on cookies, tea and cat fluff.

"it's silly wrong, but vivid right"

yayzles for the new header that i made today! woo! it sucks that i've just noticed that the size was supposed to be 800 by 400 instead of 650 by 400 but...meh. i'll try to make it work.

(tbh i don't think i'll be able to sleep if i don't edit it, but let's pretend that i'm normal.)

(oops never mind that.)

isn't it just beautiful though? i really like it. it's my small tribute to merlin, a sign of respect for a warlock who was always there to save arthur and camelot but never really got the gratitude and thanks that he deserved. and the thought of him grieving and waiting for his friend after all those years..well let's just say i'm a sucker for sad things. i like to depress myself, apparently.

the words on the header is from the great dragon (kilgharrah) and is possibly my favourite quote from the series. i think it would have been something that arthur and merlin's friends would think about him, and as a (new) fan i'm grateful i decided to give the series a chance because i would have really missed out on something good. ♥

you're probably wondering, am i for real? well, yeah. i am. i am sort of maybe not but kind of am an obsessive person. i'm never obsessive about good things like work or exercising, but instead prefer to waste my life away on fictional characters and random inconsequential things that no one cares about. i am fantastic like that.

or as we say it, haters gonna hate.

i spent the whole of today editing images in photoshop and imageready. so now i have a bunch of awesome (in my humblest opinion) gifs and headers for my blog and facebook to show off. really happy with them and how they turned out even though they're obviously not that great, but hey the effort counts! i've obviously (try saying that like sherlock) made the stuff on things that i'm obsessed with at the moment which are sherlock and merlin. cos that's just how i do (say that like zefrank).

so here's the first one i made! it makes me feel happy and reminds me that good friends are always there for each other, good times or bad. :)

i worked all day to make these stuff, so it's probably safer if i watermarked them but...meh, i want the world to share the joy as long as people don't claim it as their own. i'm only human, i want to feel appreciated too.

i actually haven't been photoshopping in a long time. sometimes i open up photoshop (mine is cs2, i seriously need to update bah) and try to churn out some stuff but nothing comes out. i mean, these new ones aren't groundbreaking obviously (just try saying it like sherlock, please?) and they have that same, er...feel that all my edits have but it's been a while that i've liked something i made myself. next step is to create something new from scratch. chaiyok!

i'm also gonna put my sherlock poster at the sidebar. COS I BELIEVE IN SHERLOCK HOLMES. (i'm thinking of printing this design onto a t-shirt. i also have a few other designs that i made on doctor who. problem? i don't know where to find iron on transfer paper. sedih. i would've worn them with pride.)

randomly, there's this random quote from cow and chicken that i say all the time. dunno why but i remember cow saying "oye donde esta el bano" or something to that effect. just thought to google it today and i found out that it meant "where is the toilet?" lolzzzzzz. that cartoon's probably the reason why i'm so weird.

of bromances and elbows.

"well, the leaders of the free world 

are just little boys throwing stones"

i finished the final season of merlin a few days ago. how did i feel? 

lol i cried like a mofo, which is funny really, because I ALREADY KNOW THE ENDING. silly silly anis. don't get me wrong, even though i love arthur and wish that he didn't die, my heart went way, way out to merlin because:

a) he lost his best friend,

b) after trying so hard to protect arthur he fails to do so,

c) he finally reveals his true powers only to have arthur die. in. his. hands, and 

d) after all that time, he's still waiting for arthur? *starts weeping softly*

gahhhh, so many feels. all in all, even though the ending makes me want to punch someone in the face, i would definitely recommend everyone to watch it! it's funny, it's got magic and adventure, it's got loads of hot guys in it, and the acting is fantastic. (i'm not saying the ending is bad. i'm just saying that it's sad. i hate it when characters get sad endings. i'm bollywood like that. if i had my way all the characters in the movies or series that i love get a happy ending plus a free subscription to reader's digest for life. FOR LIFE.)

by the way, who can ever forget merlin and arthur's brotherly love? not me that's fo'sho. 

i mean, come on. even bradley james thinks that arthur's friendship with merlin is stronger than his relationship with guinevere. that's gotta say something. 

don't mind me, just filling up the needed bromance quota while sherlock season 3 is underway.

because friendship is magic.

i've also been obsessed with elbow as of late. not my elbow. elbow the band. they are fantastic.

biggest elbow i've ever seen.

in my eyes they are kind of like a british version of switchfoot but darker. great lyrics, catchy beats, and guy garvey's voice is dark and mysterious and comforting and soothing all at the same time. some of my favourites are the night will always win, open arms and leaders of the free world. oh, and grounds for divorce, of course.

the current soundtrack to my life is one day like this (which i've put on my blog, of course) because it's so uplifting. i mean, how can you not be happy when you listen to the lyrics? as someone who's been feeling pretty shit for the past few years i can tell you that happiness isn't something you can ever take for granted. if you can find happiness and strength from a song, or a poem, or even a smile, then i say go for it. life's too short to feel so sad.

plus, this is the first song i've ever heard that uses the word cow in the lyrics and pulls it off beautifully. (the only other song i've ever heard that mentions a cow is the theme song for cow and chicken. heh)

a blog post about as interesting as my left toenail.

i'm currently on the 3rd season of merlin on the 7th episode. it kind of breaks my heart to know that merlin only has 5 seasons, because i've come to really love the characters and to know that the show doesn't last longer just...sucks. i realise that i am coming in as a fan after the show's already finished and i even know what happens in the end (thanks to tumblr) but it's hard to accept the truth because you're so invested in what the characters are going through.

aw merlin dear don't cry you still have arthur

don't know what kind of a mess i'd be if sherlock finishes. just the thought of it...

but no. i shall not speak of those days. we'll cross that road when the time comes but until then...

i often feel like my blog is too impersonal. i don't post a lot of pictures of myself and my life (in fact i hate taking pictures of myself, probably due to my low self-esteem i feel like i look like shit in most of my pictures) and i don't tell stories about what's happened in my life. if i do, i make sure to use the vaguest and most-long winded descriptions possible because that's just how i roll.

on a random note, whenever someone does something vague my supervisor has taken to calling them anis-isms/ they are being anis-ed, for example:

acquaintance:   miss so-and-so thinks she will be able to come but she's not sure.

le prof:            why that sounds like anis! she's been anis-ed!

me:                  lolzzzzzzzzz true that.

lol it is actually quite true. i don't know, i just have a weird fear of not being able to keep my promise so i always say maybe and i think and all that stuff. ah well, at least it shows that my supervisor knows me all too well? :\

to be honest, i'm not sure i know what the purpose of this post is for. i'd tell you something interesting that happened in my life but well, to quote john watson: "nothing happens to me". well, wait, some things do happen to me but for reasons unbeknownst to even myself i choose to not blog about that and instead i blog about...random stupid stuff. huh. 

note to self: you need to get your priorities straight. 

it's weird though that i choose to have a blog but i don't really like sharing my feelings on the internet anymore. i don't like taking pictures (but i have an slr) and my life is mundane and boring for the most part. what the flipping hell compelled me to start writing in a blog? 

hmph. must not let negativity rule. think. happy. thoughts. like benny. or colin morgan. or bradley james. mrowr.

in an attempt to make this post more personal, i leave with a picture of...er, wally. on a fence. with his tongue sticking out. uh...yeah. good times.

i wish i had killer cheekbones.

"i found your message lying at the bottom of a bottle,

come back to where the streets are paved in stone"

my life for these past 2 weeks have played out like a horror movie. 

i have had to learn to accept some pretty unbelievable facts. supernatural facts. facts about my family tree and my ancestors that i have never known before. basically, to sum things up in a few words: i find out that my eczema was not in fact triggered by natural factors but was partly due to sihir (because witchcraft sounded too fuckin' weird) and partly due to my great ancestor on my mom's side who kept a djinn. 

this djinn (jin islam ok) wants me to take care of her and inherit her abilities (my mom told me that this great ancestor of mine was a midwife for a royal family (not sure if it was the kelantan royal family or some other royal family, y'know). and because that djinn is also a muslim i can't kill it (well the 'doctor' who i went to can't) but instead i have to make a decision (through prayer and doa) whether or not i want to keep it or get it the heck away from me.  

  

needless to say, everyone in my family is freaked the fahk out. 

lol spock what the heck so sassy

now this will sound like a load of tosh to someone who doesn't believe in the supernatural realm and spirits and unseen entities and such, and i actually thought that i was in a frickin' dream most of the time i was going through this stuff but after all the things that i've seen and gone through to get to my state today you can call me a believer all right.

it's a very long story, so if you ever meet me face to face you can ask me and i shall tell all. :)

now let's move on to better and brighter things. i am on a shopping ban. lol. i found out a few days ago that i have spent too much of my fucking money and that i cannot continue to casually waste my life away with material things. meh actually i just said to myself "no more yolo anis. no more yolo." 

heh. oh well, we'll see how that goes. so what have i been doing as of late? let's see....

• broken sword 3

ooh i just started playing broken sword 3: the sleeping dragon. broken sword is this awesome point-and-click adventure pc game starring george stobbart and nico collard and involves dragons, neo-templars, paris, tezcatlipoca and more. the dialog is very witty and funny, the game is fun, what more could you ask for? 

broken sword 2 was my favourite!

• war movies 

i've also recently been into modern war movies, for some unknown reason. just watched black hawk down again after so long, man that movie is good. inglourious basterds is also a good movie, i especially liked brad pitt's role because he was so funny. 

my all time favourite though will always be (don't know how many times i've said this) saving private ryan. why? because tom hanks, yo. and awesomeness. and snipers, yea.

i've always had this fantasy where i'd imagine the kind of role i would play in a group should i ever come across a war/battle zone/apocalyptic kind of situation. would i be brave? would i be the scared one always looking for the easy way out? would i jeopardize the group in any situation? one thing that i know i would be good at is hiding and stealth. i've always managed to scare the living shit out of random strangers when i suddenly come around a corner unannounced teehee. i also know that i am the kind of person who would panic easily.

but one thing's for sure, if i were ever in a war i'd want a john watson-type with me. because come on, john watson = BAMF. no other words for him. he's an army doctor, a damn good crack shot, he's loyal and sociable and is a good leader. aaaaand he's a hedghog.

oh here we go again with the sherlock love.
but oh look military!jawn.

seriously though? sherlock and john? BEST. FRIENDSHIP. EVER. i hope that one day i get to have a friendship like that. ooh speaking of other friendships, i have just downloaded the first season of merlin. because from the stuff i've seen on the interwebs, merlin and arthur are also super bromantic (i've mentioned this in previous posts i think). heck yea, i'm all up for bromances! plus, colin morgan and bradley james are pretty tight in real life too!

plus, they are both very hot. therefore your argument is invalid. (i mean look at colin morgan's cheekbones. they are KILLIN'.) 

cheekbones are on par with benedict's. *swoons*

i'm off to do some work. and watch some merlin? probably watch some merlin. hah.