a lot of crazy talk and no action

am supposed to be working now.

but not working. brain ded. cannot funkshun proeprlyyy...

haih. might as well blog, right?

i really hope i wake up after this for sahur. or i'm gonna be hungry as heckkk.

disgruntled looking cat just jumped down from bed onto the floor where i am sitting, and proceeds to sleep right beside me. cute cat. *pats*

what i'm currently thinking about:

a) in the older days, how did people cut their nails?

completely legit question, right? i mean, did they use scissors? knives? shears?

how does one maintain perfectly well-groomed nails when nail clippers weren't yet invented?

gahd, life has so many mysteries.

b) funky coloured eyeliner!

these are lovely.

taken from yourhemisphere.blogspot.com

snatched from ourvanity.com

ah look she's so kawaii! lolzzz. from uhm, pinterest.com

is it crazy that i love these looks? might be my mid-life crisis kickin' in early. meh.

c) penang metal sculptures

encountered a few of these babies when i was in the island a month or so ago. first time i've seen them. thought they were graffiti, but turns out they're not!

not my pic obviously, pic taken from lost-in-my-reverie.blogspot.com

taken from penang-traveltips.com

aren't they amazing? they've actually been installed since 2010, i've just never seen them before! these funkadelic street art is part of a project called sculpture at work. respect!

d) neon lipstick

yes. i've gone mad. but to be fair, these girls make it look so pretteh.

not saying that i can wear these. but meh, mid-life crisis right? maybe i'll try one day!

i lost the link to these pics. gahhh sorry! well, i googled them anyways.

contrast!

i'm not a rihanna fan, but i think she looks adorable in this here pic. 

e) why isn't my ordered batch of kuih semperit here yet?

i ordered them like, last week. they should be here.

i want to eat now.

i have to eat my meds tomorrow morning during sahur.

god i have to go to sleep now, or i'll never wake up.

night! 

i've got reasons why.

"even in my dreams i am restless, looking for you."

- restless, switchfoot

dear world,

please listen to more switchfoot. the lyrics to their songs contain probably some of the most poignant and though-provoking phrases i've ever had the pleasure of listening to in my life. 

my favourite song of their at the moment is restless. i mean, how can you not love a song with lyrics that are so profound. it speaks of the kind of love everyone probably dreams about but don't ever mention, the kind of hopeful and breathtaking love that if i'm lucky enough, i'll get to experience one day. (fingers crossed?) 

even in my dreams, i am restless looking for you. these words, to me, embody love in all its glory, it's the kind of emotion you reserve for the real things in life, like God, and love. now, i know i sound all sapped out and hopelessly romantic or some kind of fool for believing in such sentiments, i mean, life is a cruel mistress as they say, (has someone ever said that? i think someone has. couldn't have made that up) but sometimes, in life, you have to have hope.

you have to know that things get better one day. that the shitty things do go away, and one day you will be man enough to remember the hard times and think to yourself, "look at the things that i've gone through. look at me now, stronger than before".

it's nice, no, it's great sometimes to keep these kind of thoughts in your head. sometimes things get rough, you feel like you want to just give up and forget everything, sometimes you wonder why you even bother. those are the times when you've got to take a step back, and learn to love and appreciate everything that you've got. 

i'm all for falling in love with some awesome dude one day. one day. that sounds like it's gonna be a good day. but you know what they say, love yourself before you can love others. it's kind of hard sometimes. i'm still not fully there. i doubt if i can ever be that confident, glowingly beautiful woman with her independence and firm thoughts, but i'm gonna settle for crazy, not-quite-there-yet chick with jumbled creepy thoughts and a determination to mean something to the world.

one way or another, i'm gonna make the world a better place. 

and that, my friends, is what you call loving yourself.

:D

p/s:
random story. i went to a switchfoot concert when i was in uni once. it was unplanned, crazy, and one of the coolest things that has ever happened to me. during the concert, jon foreman who is the lead singer of switchfoot, (who is in my eyes one of the greatest philosophers of this generation) said something that awed me.

it's actually one of the things that prompted me to want to become a better person, in a way. he made me feel like i was something, it didn't matter how or who i was important to. what mattered was somehow, someway, someday, i would make a difference. he said:

"i do not believe that i have been given these lungs for nothing".

there, make what you want out of it.

there's no stopping me.

i feel like punching someone in the face.

repeatedly.

with a knife.

just thoughts...

"God, i believe, 

please help me believe."

awesome things i want no 124432343.

"don't waste your time on me, you're already the voice inside my head (i miss you)."

i have a serious addiction. i'm addicted to shopping.

say whaaaat? ok this is already nothing new since my friends and family members know how much i love shopping nowadays lolz. but for me, this is a problem. i don't want to like shopping so much. i don't want to always buy shit that i may or may not use. (well of course i'll buy something i use la, but sometimes things don't work for me, so..yeah) 

i'm working on getting a project 10-pan or 5-pan for myself, for all the makeup i've been crazily purchasing (and loving btw, but shhhhh!) which i will explain in detail in another post, but for now let's focus on one aspect of my crazy binge-shopping habit: accessories.

ooh, girrrrrl, i love accessories. they're awesome. at the rate i'm going now with my accessories shopping, i'm probably gonna collect every colour jewelry there is out there and make a huge kick ass collection, which i'll then display in it's very own room when i get my very own house. 

i am trippin' right now haha.

so. the accessories that i'm loving right now are: cuffs.

not to be confused with cufflinks, cuffs are actually like bangles. except they're large, and solid, and chunky, and bee-yoo-tee-ful! these are the cuffs i'm talking about, i particularly am in love with gold cuffs like these:

the cuffs that started my lemming, celine metal gold cuffs. trés chic!
pic from jadorefashionlove.blogspot.com

this is gorgeous! it's from ben-amun.com. very the mummy-esque right?

i actually bought a set of gold cuffs from diva, so fingers crosses that i can rock 'em! :p i hope i look as awesome as this chick, minus the blonde hair, beautiful face and great bod haha.

pic from ecosalon.com

okay, i think you get the picture yeah? moving on. other stuff i have been lemming are these mint green jeans, it's just such a pretty colour! i'm already rockin' pink and orange-red jeans, why not mint green huh?

very pretty! from postcardsfromfrisco.blogspot.com

and shoes like these drive me insane with want, lol.

block heels from katyetcetera.blogspot.com. makes me look tall and  bad ass, yep.

so..*sob* pretty! (think i got this from dulcecandy.com)

finally, cool picture of the day. 

pic taken from thebeautyfile.com

ohmygod. i need a nook like that in my life. is it called a nook? i think so. a balcony-ish nook of wonderment and awesomeface-ness! but it'd be so filthy if it was in malaysia cos of the rain and bird poo haha. so, one day when i'm old enough to buy a house (which is right now), i'm going to buy one overseas in a cold-climate country and have all of this magnificence so i can wake up every morning and have my cranberry tea there, or read a book whilst annoying wally and gaze out and enjoy the beautiful scenery. wow.

so that's enough nonsense from me for a post. ha. take care people, later!