the clark kent syndrome.

i have a question. 

does a person really look that different when they switch from wearing glasses to wearing contact lenses?

i've been wearing glasses since i was 0.3547211 years old and have only recently jumped into the contact lenses bandwagon. i just felt like a change, you know? i like wearing glasses, especially those nerdy ones, but sometimes i wanna blend in and you know, look fun for a change. like, if you wear glasses you don't have a lot of options for wearing your tudung (headscarf)...well i don't have a lot of options anyways, because i am clueless about things like that. :\

...randomly, how the heck do some girls just magically obtain these scarf-winding-around-the-head skills? i mean, i watch youtube for videos on how to style your hijab, and i don't. understand. a. thing. (i usually just show the video to my officemate and make her learn the style and then teach it to me. which she does in like, 5 minutes. what the EFF.)  

ehh, hilang fokus kejap. moving on, yeah, glasses. i went to my brother's wedding (belah perempuan) yesterday, and people didn't recognise me. and i was like, why? does one look that different without glasses? or are people just so accustomed to the thing that seeing a person without their glasses just looks weird or something? 

i ask because i'm so curious. when i was a kid i lolwtf'd when i watched superman, because see, superman doesn't wear glasses but his alter ego, clark kent does. he goes back and forth between being a superhero and being a nerdy dude wearing nerdy glasses, and people never know that it's him.

so...maybe i've got this whole clark kent-superman thing down pat?

this is just like me...except i'm way more buff than he is.

ah, i know! there's probably also the hijab style factor to consider. i used to wear tudung bawal and refused to wear other types of tudung materials and styles, because i'm classic like that. 

pah, you know what? i'll show you pictures. before and after. you be the judge, playa.

BEFORE:

i'm really good at making weird faces. everyone says so.

but now i've decided to update myself, and i look like this! bam! 

AFTER:

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okay so the picture is horrible, and i'm sweating like a mofo, and i'm making yet another weird face. i'm sorry, but this was taken yesterday from the wedding and i was the photographer, so i couldn't bloody well take pictures of myself could i? and the shots that do have my face are either of me...uh, making weird faces, or the pictures are all blurred. fml. 

and yes, i was sweating profusely while that picture was taken, it was warm and i was wearing black. and i look fat because fat is my middle name. okay? okay?

but anyways...what do you think? do i look different? 

i think i look the same...eww. (cue sad elton-john-type music) sigh, am i the only girl in the world who takes 1054292 pictures of herself on the camera but can only find 2 good pictures of herself? (and one is of her making a funny face, sheesh)

SUCKS.

p/s: randomly, one of my friends told me that i look like a friendlier person when i'm wearing glasses, and that i look a bit snobbish without them. i can neither confirm nor deny this tidbit of information, thus i shall need to experiment further on this idea. 

if i ever get outta here.

this has been a horrible month, to be perfectly honest.

first of all, and most importantly, i still haven't got my salary for june. and now it's nearly the end of july, what. the. fark. how are we supposed to work in this kind of environment la idiot bosses? i am honestly fed up with the whole situation, fuck it i'm looking for a new job. 

then the people of ambank has made the past friday a living nightmare for me by towing away my car. you read that right. they towed away my car. these 3 indian fellas came up to see me at my office and wanted my car keys. i was freaked as hell, i'll tell you that. ambank claims that my parents haven't paid for my car installment for 5 months already, which is impossi-fucking-ble. (sorry i'm a bit riled up) turns out the payments have been going in tapi for some ungodly reason it couldn't go through the stupid bank's system and so hilang macam tu je. so my parents had to pay for the whole 5 months (i'm so sorry mama and ayah, i love you both) and then i dunno la how they're gonna track the missing cash that they already paid before this.

sigh. baru petang tadi pegi ambik my car. ambank is slow. system is ridiculously outdated. i am appalled at the kind of service they're providing and i would've smacked the people involved in this right in the nads. fortunately, or unfortunately, i still have some semblence of patience left in me, so i'll let this one pass. but i will pray that those people who have done me wrong will get raped by giant bloody spiders from hell. grr.

 gah. i miss shopping. shoppiiiiiiinggggg. :(