i am a dancing star and a wiggling toe.

if anyone's in the mood for heartbreak (and tears and uncontrollable sobbing and abnormal bladder reactions and loss of heart warmth, in no general order) go watch the movie third star. it's a brilliant movie, a bit slow and quiet, but it's so sad and deep and if that's not enough it has benedict cumberbatch in it. go, thank me later you fool, go.

ah, you wonder why i like (read: am madly in love with and is currently saving money to go to britain to propose marriage to) benedict cumberbatch? let me tell you why!

forward march!

alternative title should be:
why benedict cumberbatch should win ALL THE AWARDS!

• benedict cumberbatch is a great actor

his acting is superb. i've now watched sherlock, and tinker tailor soldier spy, and atonement, and third star, oh, and starter for 10, and his acting in each and every one of them is brilliant! fantastic! amazing! there are these little things that he does that makes his character seem so real. like, in tinker tailor, he plays peter guillam, and there's a scene where he picks up the phone at the office. and it's really random and i'm looking too much into it, but he sort of does this awkward hand thing which made me think quite suddenly, "god, peter is such a nerd." and just like that, i believed in the character that he was playing. because it wasn't all smooth operator and aku lelaki macho and awkward dialog deliveries. it was flawlessly executed.

don't even get me started on the movie third star. after watching the movie i couldn't stop bawling my eyes out and the feels, oh the feels. it felt like my heart was emptied of all the happy emotions, and replaced with sad, terrible scenes that didn't even exist in the movies lol. so in a way, this movie is like a dementor. serious weh. but sooooo worth watching.

• benedict cumberbatch is breathtakingly, devastatingly beautiful

yes, yes he is. thousand, perhaps millions of women (and men) across the globe can attest to this fact. nevermind that i personally found him to be rather odd looking the first time i saw him, nothing to fall in love with or gush about, surely. (silly, blind me) but his oddness, and i do mean that as a compliment, is what makes him so appealing, combined with his personality and great acting chops. i mean look at his face. it could make a fish cry, for cryin' out loud!

i think better when i look good.

look at the cheekbones. THE CHEEKBONES! man, i'd kill for cheekbones like that. they're so sharp. like miss adler so wonderfully informs us all: "i could cut myself on those cheekbones". his face is so unique. his eyes are like the ocean. his face is very clear, naturally this is something i envy because how does he take care of his skin goshdarnit?

not sure where i snatched this from, if anyone knows?

and when he smiles, it's so sincere and warm and i melt into a puddle of feels and love. he's got this adorable way of smiling as sherlock, where only the edge of his mouth quirks up and only on one side and it's awesome and very mysterious and altogether it makes me swoon like a fangirl. but i'm not shallow, because:

• benedict cumberbatch is extremely likeable

i've seen hundreds of interviews of him already all over youtube. he's funny, and very smart, and so eloquent that i feel like i'm looking at google in human form. and he's so passionate about the things that he likes and his acting. he can spin a thousand words just from one single question, and make it sound absolutely beautiful and not boring. he is active in charity, and loves reading, and knows his politics (well, that isn't such a huge point for me, the politics bit, but it shows how well-rounded he is).

there's something in him that's very posh as well, which i love. he's the proper english gentleman, i must say. with dashing good looks and a great attitude to boot. (dreamy sigh) plus he has this cute habit of ranting and going off in a tangent whenever he speaks and he loses his focus on one subject, which i admit, is exactly how i am. (and i am not saying this to like, brag, or liken myself to him. it's actually an annoying habit on myself because i can never get my point across without sounding like a sod and confusing people but he does it effortlessly and so eloquently and i love him for it!)

• benedict cumberbatch has THE voice

his voice. oh my god. it could melt puddles into puddles, and turn ice into vapours. his voice is so deep and relaxing. sometimes when i'm stressed out with my work i just open my itunes and listen to his voice as he narrates random stories, and i swear it is so relaxing. he's also an amazing storyteller. check this. 

right? RIGHT? his voice is like honey. or melted gold, yeah, cos that's more expensive. and he changes the voice with every character! perfection.

and everyone who appreciates british humour should definitely take a look at cabin pressure, in which he is playing a character called captain martin crieff which is so so so funny. it's wonderfully written and my favourite episode is the one with the polar bear where martin pretends to be a french pilot. it's funny. go youtube it!

sigh. i've been obsessed with actors. frequently, in fact. but i have never seen myself so dedicated to this one man called benedict cumberbatch. see even his name is awesome and weird. he's quickly risen to be in the top 5 of my favourite actors of all time. he's so talented, and dedicated, and...no no, no more gushing. phew.

• benedict cumberbatch loves his fans

it's obvious in the pictures and videos and fan-told stories of him. they always say that he's extremely nice, very gentlemanly, happy and smiley and he often takes the time to greet his fans even though it's obvious that he would appreciate a bit of privacy every now and then. he's lovely.

plus he always personalizes his autographs with cute things, doodling pictures of himself and writing a 'hehe' next to it. which actor does that? it's now become one of my lifelong dreams to go to london and marry him meet him and get an autograph and just tell him how inspiring he is. 

because at the end of the day, i'm not only in love with his damned perfect face and perfect eyes and perfect smile and grin, but i'm also so very taken by his personality and manners and how he is so gracious is dealing with people and negativity towards him and takes everything in stride. i want to become like him. funny, likeable, very eloquent and passionate about what he believes in, hardworking, down to earth and completely adored by everyone he's ever met. 

and apparently, dirty dirty girls love benedict cumberbatch as well. lol.