You can't help being angry, or stupid, or ashamed, or selfish, or alone.
You can't help waiting, and wanting something, anything. You can't help hoping, you tell yourself.
You can't help feeling crushed when what you wait for never comes.
Really, how stupid can you be?
You're so busy trying to find yourself that you think the world will wait. The world doesn't wait. The world never fucking waits and in the end you will be left alone. Just like always.
So don't trust people. Don't hope. Don't wait for their time, or smile, or acknowledgement because they can't ever give you what you want. Don't wait on them like some stupid idiot, it's not worth the hurt. You're not in their busy, busy schedule.
You never were.