Have you ever felt the same way?
Sometimes I feel myself wanting something so bad that my chest physically hurts. It thuds, and heaves, and it makes me feel like what I want is even more impossible than ever.
I want everlasting love to anyone who's crazy enough to hand it to me. I want to change the world and see tears of joy flowing, instead of tears of pain. I want to matter to someone, anyone. I want to be proud of myself and what I've achieved, even though I haven't achieved anything yet so far in life.
I want to travel the world, and meet new people, and love a stranger, and dazzle someone with a smile. I want fairytale endings, and bad guys who die in the end, or a song written for me. I wish someone could feel such a yearning towards me that it makes it difficult for him to breathe.
Of course, I'm asking for too much. I always do.
It must be frustrating to want something so much but know that you can never get it. If I weren't so bloody hurt right now, I'd probably relate.